Monday, September 21, 2009
I find myself losing more and more control over my life.
it's not that i have a crippling disease or anything like that .
i came here with the intention of becoming a better person but in the process, i find myself even more messed up.
and i thought a different environment , culture and all that stuff would change me to become even more resilient, determined and stronger.
but each day i feel myself lapsing back into the defeated messed up shell of a soul and i wonder after squandering so much money on an education abroad, whether it was necessary even at all.
i wonder where's my passion , my drive and everything else.
i;ve realised, with all that bravado of stepping out my comfort zone , i actually still need to stay safe in it desperately.
til the next,
love ,
me
5:22 AM
