Wednesday, March 04, 2009
sch started OK. and i'm like in a super duper grumpy & depressed mood because I dont know why. it feels like i'm pressurizing myself for i dont know what. it started w the thermody lecturer which i actually enjoyed , because she was the only lecturer who spoke fluently & had a decent sense of humor. but she got all emo and fired up when we were told to split into groups according to our months and answer some qns abt thermody and tell her what was special about being borned in that month.
when it came to the different months, the months of sept/nov/dec and OH she skipped AUG... didnt manage to send out a representative. well, i'm a sept baby and i didnt volunteer myself because i'm downright out shy and caught in such a position, i'm speechless and she said smth like " well... these pple shouldnt go to aust for exchange/transfer at all..." because to her, we're not outspoke enough for the aussie environment. i wouldnt fully disagree, but what made me feel worse was, i am already in a situation which doesnt render me a chance to go aust, as it is i feel horrible over, regardless of whether how would she know or not, but obviously , this isnt the right thing to say .
so after her lecture, i had a 3 hrs break. i headed off to the gym to dissipate my anger.
everyone knows i want to go to aust and i've been lamenting n lamenting to friends because they are already making plans to go in less than 6 mths. i dont feel good at all and each time i get feelings of despair and it really isnt such a big deal.
i feel like i lost a part of me.
and getting all emo and losing my cool is not doing myself justice.
til the next,
love ,
me
7:01 AM
